To Think Is To Create —

Come See The River

December 7, 2011

She is the deep thinker I am.
Perplexed by the camera which turns grins into hilarious judgy baby face.
She prefers me, which is entirely new to this mama.
{swoon to the max}
She is having good nights and the evenings are still hard but I know her cries now.
I can tell when she just wants me. Or [...]

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A Confession

December 4, 2011

Sometimes it’s the epitome of that feeling of being watched. You are not your own anymore.
You have that Not You inside you, literally there in a tangible way that if we just invented the right kind of scan they’d be able to locate it.
A soul scan.
The unseen aren’t nonexistent, just viewed with special eyes.
I [...]

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Go Learn. Go Discover.

December 1, 2011

You who are tiny and strong.
You who are brave.
Do you know how unique you are?
You are the generation that will never NOT know the internet.
That? Is special.
It means that since your birthed day,
you have had an epic amount of possibilities available to you.
You don’t know that making a Christmas list online is a new-ish delight.
You [...]

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How She Came To Be – River’s Birth Story

November 29, 2011

Friends, I have no idea where these days and weeks have gone. River turns 8 weeks old in a couple days and honestly? We cannot believe it. I haven’t blogged here mostly because I had no idea time was rushing past me (the other reason is because colic has ruled the house). Things are finally [...]

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Small Style – 3 Weeks

October 28, 2011

There is this place where I go when I talk to God.
Somewhere in the in between.
Where things aren’t so tethered.
God said to go there even when I’m not praying.
Just to be.
To notice larger things.
To hear whispers like “this is temporary…”
That place seems a tiny line between denial and surrender…
We get to choose which side we [...]

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What I Wore – Little Babies Are Little

October 26, 2011

There was this one time
when I gave birth to a baby girl
and she was so much me
that I never slept again.

River isn’t a fan of sleeping.
Three weeks in and it feels like yesterday.
She was beauty and pain and emerged here at my home
THREE WEEKS AGO?
I didn’t mean to leave
and not tell you all about the [...]

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River Promise

October 6, 2011

She kept us waiting didn’t she? Two weeks late, but right on time.
Welcome to the world!

River Promise

Born at home in the water at 6:30pm October 5, 2011
9lbs 2oz 21.5 inches
As you can see, she is a tiny girly wonder to her big brothers.
She brings with her missings of her sister Mabel,
but the Promise of redemption.
We [...]

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On Being Someone’s Person

September 23, 2011

There was this one time
they were playing
and they didn’t fight.
The end.
But seriously – I’ve never seen closer best buddies.
Third little brother is a part of this trio,
this band.
They aren’t always natural at play…
sometimes they struggle.
And play just looks like wrastlin’
until it looks like fightin’
and usually there’s bleedin’
And I wonder WHEN I will go a minute [...]

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What I Wore (40wks)

September 23, 2011

For the first time I’m passing my baby’s due date with total peace.
I’m pretty sure I’ve always cried and tantrumed my way across due dates in the past.

I think everyone but me is feeling that way, actually.

I had this big breakdown on Sunday, epic epic crying.
I had been holding back,
thinking that being “done” would somehow [...]

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