To Think Is To Create —

Small Style – 3 Weeks

October 28, 2011

There is this place where I go when I talk to God.
Somewhere in the in between.
Where things aren’t so tethered.
God said to go there even when I’m not praying.
Just to be.
To notice larger things.
To hear whispers like “this is temporary…”
That place seems a tiny line between denial and surrender…
We get to choose which side we [...]

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What I Wore – Little Babies Are Little

October 26, 2011

There was this one time
when I gave birth to a baby girl
and she was so much me
that I never slept again.

River isn’t a fan of sleeping.
Three weeks in and it feels like yesterday.
She was beauty and pain and emerged here at my home
THREE WEEKS AGO?
I didn’t mean to leave
and not tell you all about the [...]

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River Promise

October 6, 2011

She kept us waiting didn’t she? Two weeks late, but right on time.
Welcome to the world!

River Promise

Born at home in the water at 6:30pm October 5, 2011
9lbs 2oz 21.5 inches
As you can see, she is a tiny girly wonder to her big brothers.
She brings with her missings of her sister Mabel,
but the Promise of redemption.
We [...]

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On Being Someone’s Person

September 23, 2011

There was this one time
they were playing
and they didn’t fight.
The end.
But seriously – I’ve never seen closer best buddies.
Third little brother is a part of this trio,
this band.
They aren’t always natural at play…
sometimes they struggle.
And play just looks like wrastlin’
until it looks like fightin’
and usually there’s bleedin’
And I wonder WHEN I will go a minute [...]

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What I Wore (40wks)

September 23, 2011

For the first time I’m passing my baby’s due date with total peace.
I’m pretty sure I’ve always cried and tantrumed my way across due dates in the past.

I think everyone but me is feeling that way, actually.

I had this big breakdown on Sunday, epic epic crying.
I had been holding back,
thinking that being “done” would somehow [...]

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On Cultivating Heart Strings

September 17, 2011

THERE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL about real life.
It’s not just the laughter you can see instead of just hear (or read).It’s not the twinkle in a friend’s eye.
It’s more than the touch or the hug or the wiping away of tears.
It’s that we were created for it.To mingle our spirits togetherand with Him.
To be fully full [...]

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What I Wore (39wks)

September 16, 2011

It’s been a long week, friends.
And perhaps I have another week left?

The effort it took to get these pics taken
may show in my eyes if you look closely.

But I can’t help but feel like the most blessed
who gets to feel kicks and wiggles
{oh so down low wiggles}
all by myself.

Soon I will have to share.
Baby will [...]

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On Going Home

September 14, 2011

Sara skyping in with the (in)Courage writers last week at Hilton Head Island, SC

My mind and heart has been consumed with something else today. SomeONE else.
I tried to get dressed and take pictures of this beautiful belly I still have.
Of the life about to emerge.
But perhaps tomorrow for that, for today is for Sara.
One of my fellow (in)courage writers, a friend and dear one,
is about to go to [...]

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Just Write. The First.

September 13, 2011

I kept thinking it was getting late and
bed wasn’t calling but
when you can go into labor
any second
you have to be rested.
It’s what smart people do.
Suddenly the whole planet seemed
off kilter
and I couldn’t stand up straight
or think straight.
Things were cramping and tightening
but I couldn’t tell you where or what
and my mind became as restless as a [...]