I just stole away to my bedroom upstairs, quietly and quickly. I don’t know if I should lay down for a nap, fold one of the many mountains of laundry, or actually do some blog reading for once…
I couldn’t take being out in the world any longer today, even if “the world” was just my family room. My bedroom seems removed somehow, my respite from reality.
I can still hear crying from up here. Still hear the sounds of a messy house and messy life. And yes, life gets so messy, doesn’t it?
We are having to make some big grown up decisions that I neither like, nor want to do. I never thought we’d have to make these. They’re very messy.
I wonder how long I can stay up here until someone notices…
Update: 4 minutes.
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Pull the covers over your head and ignore the world, babe. If you need anything, ANYTHING, please let me know. I love you.
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I hope those 4 minutes were a much needed respite from the messy. Hugs, sweetie.
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Oh girl. I did that a few weeks ago…AND…I LOCKED the bedroom door! I could only hold out for so long before the guilt started to trickle out of my pores. Maybe we should switch houses? I'll hide in your bedroom, you hide in mine. Do you think we'd still feel guilty because we can hear each other's messes? Hmmm…
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Such a sweet escape to the confines of your bedroom — Even if for only 4 minutes. I've done it many, many times myself. Here's what transforms me into a sane, able-bodied, ready-to-return-to-life person: Lie on your back, arms stretched over your head. Breathe in very slowly, as deeply as you can & slowly exhale. Do this at least five times. You'll be amazed. I promise
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Arianne Reply:
May 14th, 2009 at 9:53 am
This is awesome, thank you!
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I find my bedroom to be an escape also. It's my dog who I hear crying and howling for me downstairs. I pray that you will see a rainbow and know there is hope among the mess. If I haven't told you before, I am very impressed by the 10# button on the side. So, see, not all is a mess.
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Arianne Reply:
May 14th, 2009 at 9:53 am
Yes, you’re so right — thanks Mimi!
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I love the stolen moments. Gives you a new, fresh outlook.
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We've been having to make some grown up decisions too and it sucks. Hang in there. Things will be resolved and you can move on. Just remember to love on the family and remember all the blessings that surround you everyday that sometimes we overlook. I hope decisions are made soon!!
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I am thinking of you with great love…
Remember to "take care of the minutes, for the hours will take care of themselves"… even 4 minute respites.
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I hope you can feel my love and my prayers being sent your way, they are fierce and they are for you.
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