This week was one of those weeks that I wish I could just discreetly erase from my mental hard drive. Wallowing in my own self pity, about this life, this family, these poor children. It wasn’t good.
I work very hard to keep positivity in the front of my mind. Hope is all we have sometimes, but it can be enough. Should be enough. Coping skills are needed in my world, strong ones, those made of steel — tools that anyone with a hard lot in life keeps in their quiver because you’d not survive otherwise.
But this week I had no coping skills.
Where did they go? Stolen away by tiny soul sucking events that didn’t seem at all tiny, at the time.
I do not kid myself…everyone has their cross to bear, and many families have it harder than we do. I know this.
So today, as the sky cleared ever so slightly and I saw the sun for a few short moments, and even now as I sit and watch the sunset. The hope has returned. I’ve decided to cope. I’ve decided to renew my soul. I’ve decided to hope.
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Some weeks it is very hard–no matter what you're outlook. I'm glad the clouds are clearing.
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Ah, man. You can delete this one, I just want to be clear that I meant "your" not "you're"–gah. And I'm a grammar snob. Double Gah.
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I think although remaining as positive as possible is important, it is also important to let yourself go and wallow once in a while. It helps me and my renewal process.
I'm sorry your week was hard. I hope this coming one is much better.
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I'm glad you have hope, and I hope for you that the sun keeps peeking through! ;o)
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I'm so thankful that you got to see the clouds part today. I'm convinced that hope is the strongest of traits to have. When it's gone for a bit and then we get it back, it's as if we have gained another chance.
PS. I love the picture. HE is sunshine.
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We each have weeks with self-pity and wallowing. I know that I appreciate my family more when I go through one of these weeks, and love them even more.
Hope next week is better!!
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Hey, I hope you are doing okay. Thinking about you!
Love, Jen
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Thanks for being so real! It is nice to know that I'm not alone with coping skills escaping me. As I sit here on this dreary day, it was nice to hear you talk about the sun peeking through and enjoying the sunset. That gave me hope!! I'm linking up to this post for my Sunday Linkage!
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I'm so glad you're able to find hope, despite it all. And remember, anytime you need it, I always have a cookie with your name on it. Or a pasta salad. Whatever I can convince my kitchen slave to make! xo.
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(((HUGS))) and you know you can talk to me any time.
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I'm sorry this was a tough week for you, and i hope that this next one is the start to many more "much better" weeks. Hang in there!! :-)
Hugs,
Michele
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Sending you hugs. Big ones. I can so relate to what you are feeling.
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