I Get Lost

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Last night I read this post by Technosailor, that talked about playing to your strengths and having confidence in who you are. That confidence draws people to you…that it gets people lost in you.

As I reflected on this idea, I realized that I generally feel confident in my abilities. This is huge for me, because it has not always been that way. Feeling confident in myself just feels right. As if there isn’t any other way to feel.

Sure, I am not always confident that my writing is good, because while it seems interesting to me, it also seems too fluffy and floaty compared to the cynical bloggers I read so often. I do have an edge to me in real life. Sarcasm is fun and I have a quirky wit that not everyone “gets”, but my heart is poetic and just as fluffy as can be. And most of my writing reflects that side of me.

I have to wonder if all artists question their work. Is it just me?

At the same time, I know that it makes me feel good to have a place I can put my heart out there for you all. To consume or to love, whichever you choose. Either way is fine, because I put it out there and leave it there.

I feel as though turning 30 was a big milestone in this journey of bravery and loving who I am and who God made me to be. The confidence increases daily, and knowing that I have special gifts excites me that I can use those skills and passions and run with them. What does the future hold? I’m not sure, but I know that every day brings something new and challenging and thrilling. And that’s something to get lost in.

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July 1, 2008 | Filed Under Myself and I

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12 Responses to “I Get Lost”

Peanut Butter and Jelly Boats on July 1st, 2008 10:20 am

I know that when I start to doubt myself, I almost completely shut down and stop any progress at all. 30 will be here in a few months for me, while I’m not too psyched there is a bit of excitement in that for me!!
Jane - Mom Generations on July 1st, 2008 1:05 pm

First of all, you are a fabulous writer. I love reading every word you write, and your genuineness completely shines through your writing. Second of all, I question my artistic ability ALL THE TIME. Even when people compliment me, in the back of my mind there’s always that nagging, “Well, what do they know?” Like you, I have a sarcastic, quick wit that doesn’t always come through my writing… but then sometimes I read those snarky, ironic posts that some people ALWAYS write, and I’m kind of happy that’s not my “thing.” But yeah… you rock and so does your writing.

Jane
Christine on July 1st, 2008 1:10 pm

I almost wrote something along the lines of, “That’s great…go get lost!” and then I realized that ended up sounding rude ;).

I’m so glad I’ve found your site…you are such an eloquent and inspiring writer. Can’t wait to meet you at the People’s Party!
Lizz @ Yes, and So is My Heart on July 1st, 2008 3:41 pm

I’m really liking your writing, however you describe it.
A Week In The Life of A Redhead on July 1st, 2008 7:31 pm

I always say, “Always act like you’re wearing an invisible diamond crown…”
Catherine, the redhead blogger
crookedeyebrow on July 2nd, 2008 6:52 am

You, Ms. A are a fabulous writer.
I love it
and I love your confidence.

hugs,
CE
Ashlee - mama's nest on July 2nd, 2008 7:04 am

you are so cool. Seriously! I think there is a place for all that heartfelt ‘fluff’ and I for one would prefer to read words like yours that ring so true.

As for confidence and questioning I am certain more people battle with that than we know. So common. But you totally rock it woman.
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Adventures In Babywearing on July 2nd, 2008 10:28 am

I’ve found that this aging thing is totally me… I do like myself more and more, or maybe I am proud of my decisions and abilities more. Whatever it is, it doesn’t mean we won’t still question things (as that only makes us understand more) and anyway, so, I totally get what you’re saying. And writing.

Steph
San Diego Momma on July 2nd, 2008 12:42 pm

You, as I’ve recently discovered through this new-to-me blog, are a fabu writer.

I question my abilities all the time, but I think you’ve got the right attitude. Now if I can just adopt it for myself…
Robin on July 3rd, 2008 5:22 am

Hey Arianne,

Just wait til you hit 40! That’s when I REALLY got comfortable in my own skin. But ya know what? I wonder if I had blogging as a community in my 30s…if the support of others…might’ve been a confidence booster. Hmmm. Glad YOU have it now!

BTW, popped over from your post at Shannon’s to tell you how special your words were there :). So thankful you had opportunity to reveal a glimpse into your heart.

Well done…(and hugs to you for those “hard moments”).
threeundertwo on July 3rd, 2008 6:39 am

You said what I feel. I have gained confidence through blogging that I never knew I had in me. I’m comfortable with my own goofy way of writing and wonder how the cynical posters can keep it up day after day. What are they like in real life? I worry about my writing all the time but I’m 46, so who cares? I’ve let go of so much. That professor who gave me terrible grades on my writing isn’t here now.