Discombobulated: My Brain on Life

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I have felt all week as though my head might not be completely attached to my body. Something is amiss, but I can’t really explain it or even write about it. Have you ever had some incredibly intense feelings going on inside your heart and head, and been unable to place a finger on what they are or what they mean?

This much I know: I am discombobulated.

dis·com·bob·u·late [dis-kuhm bob-yuh-leyt] to confuse or disconcert; upset; frustrate; to throw into a state of confusion

Yep, that’s pretty much it.

I have some life circumstances that may “explain” my mental state, but most of them are not new, so I don’t have that shock of “oh noes!” that happens to your system when something bad happens. And even those things, things that I may have not planned for my life, are things that I’ve accepted and haven’t had any recent freak-outs about.

So what is it?

I’m an intuitive person, and I live and die by my spidey sense. I can’t tell if I’m out of sorts because something bad is ahead, or just some big change in on the way, or what. I feel like my whole body is literally hurting, and I don’t know how to fix it.

Dread. I hate that feeling.

I know that no matter what happens, we will be fine, God is in control. I honestly do not doubt that. But that’s my logical brain, and my non-logical brain (i.e. 95% of it) is not peaceful at all right now.

What do you do when you have a dark cloud looming, and don’t know why? Or even if you do know why, how do you cope? Do you ignore it in hopes it goes away, do you go get a massage, or do you blog about it and be done with it?

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May 9, 2008 | Filed Under Myself and I

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14 Responses to “Discombobulated: My Brain on Life”

Miss Britt on May 9th, 2008 10:25 am

I blog about it. And thankfully, the answers usually come via that blog 95% of the time.
This Military Mama on May 9th, 2008 12:30 pm

I pray about it. I pray for peace of mind and for God to prepare my heart for what is to come.

For me it’s normally a lesson about giving it over to God, even if I don’t know what I’m giving over.
flipflopmamma on May 9th, 2008 4:56 pm

I never knew that discombobulated was a real word! I think that’s how I’ve been feeling too:( maybe it’s something in the air? Maybe it’s just plain ol PMS because I think other’s in our tribe have been feeling this way too. LOL.
Carrington on May 9th, 2008 6:04 pm

I have seen first hand how crazy accurate your spidey sense is (Ok, its actually how powerful the Holy Spirit it, but ya know), so I would trust yourself and seek the Lord. And do what you always tell your your boys and “be brave”. And remember, you’re gunna be o.k.
Carrington on May 9th, 2008 6:05 pm

P.S. Where did your lurkers-turned commenters go on this post?
milk&honey on May 9th, 2008 7:18 pm

I know what you mean, about all of it. The headlessness, the spidey sense. I describe it as more of a feeling of ‘disconnect’.

I don’t know that I really have a coping mechanism. A healthy one, anyway. I haven’t reached a point where I blog about those things (because of my comfort level maybe) and I know I don’t ignore it, because I tend to obsess over things like that.

I guess ‘me’ time is the route I usually take. Me and some music and a lot of hope.
JCon on May 10th, 2008 6:37 am

I hope you start feeling better soon. When I get those looming feelings, I usually give it to God and know that no matter what, it will be okay. But looks like you already know that!
Adventures In Babywearing on May 10th, 2008 6:53 am

Discombobulated is a very good way to put it. And I hate that feeling of impending doom. Intuitive people can take that way too seriously. (I being one of them.) But I keep meaning to tell you something I thought of but keep forgetting to, and I hope in this comment it’s ok, but I was almost reminded that maybe this feeling of spinning out of control and not knowing what is going on is part of the letting go and letting God. It’s scary because I’m not in charge. I’m kinda floating in space and have no idea where I’m going to land. But instead of thinking that is a bad thing, I’m starting to wonder if this is what it’s supposed to feel like (for us who like to be in control) when someone else is guiding the way.

?

But really, with how I’ve been lately, I don’t know what to think!

Steph
Angie McDowell Garza on May 10th, 2008 5:02 pm

I’ve had the same feeling this past week. It’s a feeling of impending doom. My feeling was triggered by several events, but I don’t know how to solve them…hence the feeling. My husband’s advice was “just keep moving forward”. I think there is a country song about the same thing…”when you’re going through hell just keep on going.” Or, something like that. It’s harder said than done, I know, but letting go and letting God is how I’m trying to “deal” right now.
Audrey - Pinks & Blues on May 10th, 2008 5:25 pm

Wow… interesting post. I definitely pray. Try and think positive. And know that there is nothing that I can do if it is out of my control. I am definitely a highly intuitive person. And I know what you mean about having a feeling you can’t shake. Keep thinking positive… and know that you can change that feeling of doom by switching to a different frequency. Does that make sense? Sorry if it doesn’t… I have a child pulling at my leg and a dirty diaper is shifting the smell of this living room!!
Listen… I hope you have a fantastic Mother’s Day!!!
xoxo,
Audrey
abbyjess on May 10th, 2008 5:54 pm

I hope that you get to feeling un-discombobulated soon. Yea, I know it’s not a word but it works.
Allie on May 12th, 2008 9:51 pm

Well, I have to say as soon as I read the title I burst out laughing. That word is an ongoing joke in our family. I got married down in the Dominican and one of the gentlemen who attended our wedding used the word and I would say 95% of the people thought that he made the word up. And, after a few rums and such, it just snowballed from there leaving a legacy of laughter and memories upon seeing that word in print.

Sigh … I am sorry you feel that way but I thank you for the laugh today.
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crookedeyebrow on May 14th, 2008 6:56 pm

I’m right there with ya sista.

I’m all out of whack.